Chapter 1

Jun 23, 2024 @ 16:26 -0500

Once upon a time, there were two people. For the sake of this story, we will call them Alex, and Nick. Alex was a beautiful young lady. She was tall, thin, long vibrant dyed red hair. Nick was an ugly young man. He was average height, overweight, and balding.

Both of them had their share of baggage. Yet, they spent some time getting to know each other and feel in love. The baggage did make things very difficult at times though.

After, a couple of years, they ended up renting a house together. One might think that things were rainbows and butterflies from that point. Yet, this is arguably when things got the most difficult for them. For even though, they had both done some pretty horrible things to each other prior to this point, I don’t think it was even the tip of the iceberg.

Though even with all the problems they’d encountered Nick never wavered in his belief that they belonged together. He’d been able to be more open with Alex than any partner in his entire life. Though despite that, much of what he hated about his personal history he had trouble sharing with her. It was never hidden intentionally. It was more never brought up because of his own hatred for that part of himself. In fact, despite never being happier before much of this self-hatred coloured many of their fights.

Alex, on the other hand outwardly wavered frequently in her belief of if they would spend their lives together. This really hurt Nick, yet it was always something he was willing to deal with.

At some point, one of the things Nick hated about his past came up. He’d spent much of his life entertaining the idea of a fluid sexuality. He’d kissed a few boys in his day, but his heart was never in it; He’d let a few people on; He’d even flirted pretty hard with quite a few men.

So when Alex had asked early in their relationship if he was gay it was a resounding NO from him, without any hesitation. He knew his heart and desires. They were 100% her. The fact that he claimed straight from meeting her on isn’t even a complete picture of what his sexuality had become, to coin a word he’d become “Alex-sexual”. He really was only interested in her.

This however didn’t change the fact that early in their relationship, which he’d honestly forgotten, he had still been too flirty in reply to some men he should have removed from his life long before.

There are a couple of reason’s this REALLY upset Alex.

  1. She’d asked him to be honest about things
    1. It wasn’t so much that he’d been lying to her, he honestly believed he’d been truthful this had been so unimportant to him that it didn’t live in his head
  2. She’d recently found out about the existence of a person whom Nick had talked to and been overly flirty with for a number of years.
    1. Nick had honestly, believed he’d cut contact with this person WAY before he did.
    2. The fact that Nick was wrong isn’t justification, in fact, the first few months of their relationship Nick spoke with him almost daily!
    3. This is really fucked up!

There is much more to this than you need to know at this time reader. But, it’s a good start.

With a lot of this in mind, Alex didn’t want to be with Nick anymore. With Alex not wanting to be with Nick, he didn’t want to live.

That’s not to say he was only alive for her, but at least part of his head and heart did believe that she as his person, was his reason for living.

As with all epic tales, this is hopefully far from over.

Seems like, the more I write, the more I want to write, but I don’t know what parts of this story are relevant right now.

Do I tell about good times, bad times, random times? Do I go into the thoughts and feelings of Nick or Alex?

Do I mention how sorry Nick is for many of the things He’s done to Alex over the years? Some that still haunt him others that he just regrets but aren’t haunting? Do I delve into some of the terrible things they have done to each other? Or silly stories?

In absolutely no way should this be chapter 1. Chapter 1 should have been either. But as the writer, I said fuck that, and went with something less fun for the intro.

  1. The stupid story of their first interaction
    • This involved trying to mess with a mutual friend
  2. The really cute story of their first meeting.
  3. One of the many cute stories of their times together.